I can sum up my first day with two words:
Yes, yesterday was my first day working for someone else. Some might wonder if the thought crossed my mind to return to porn production. I have to admit, answering to myself is nice. Setting my own schedule is heavenly. Producing porn, however, is not. The desire has been completely removed from my being, and days like today won’t bring it back. One thought that did cross my mind, however, is how depressing it is to give up my freedom all month to make less than I used to make in two days while self-employed (focus on the positive, Donny, focus on the positive).
Do I hope to be self employed again anytime soon? More than you can imagine. The sooner the better (so send all your friends and congregation members to my blog and tell them to click those Google advertising links). But porn production will not be the vehicle that takes me there.
I spent a lot of time praying today. It was a fight to keep negative thoughts out of my head. During times when I had a few moments to myself I pulled out Searching For God Knows What by Donald Miller. It really helped get my mind back where it needed to be.
Even so, at the end of the day I came home in a bit of a funk. I logged on to check my email and several of you had written me. The encouragement in those emails nearly brought tears to my eyes.
It also helps that I’ve added more than 60 Christian blogs to my Google Reader. After reading several dozen blog entries from Christians all over the world, my mood was raised. I’m really starting to get what Paul meant in Hebrews chapter 10 when he told us not to forsake assembling together. Even if it was only a “virtual” assembly it sure helped today.
If you have a blog make sure to post your URL as a comment. I’ll add you to my Google Reader. Who knows: the words you write just might change someone’s day.
PS: Waking up to an alarm clock sucks!