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Dear Daniel

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I don’t really tell you I’m proud of you, do I? I can’t remember doing that in the recent past. The “man” in me doesn’t really let me open up and do that in person, I guess. So I’m writing it publicly, right here on my blog. One thing the two of us have in common is that we really don’t care if all of our junk is aired in public. I’m not sure why that is, but I do know that God can use it. Somehow.

You’re an admitted alcoholic, and those who’ve been reading my blog for awhile already know that. Don’t let that get you down, because I have no doubts whatsoever that alcohol abuse is only a short-term thing for you. I also realize that falling to that desire may cause you shame, but what I want you to know is that I could not be more proud of the fact that you have not let go of God. You keep getting back up. You keep going. Do you know how much strength that takes? You may not see it, but I do and I want you to know that.

As part of his sermon this morning, Bill Giovannetti said God doesn’t count how many times we fall down. What’s important is that we get back up one time more than we’ve fallen. He said it much more eloquently than the way I just worded it, but I know you get the message. Continue standing back up when you fall, my brother. God’s there for you, and so am I.

You and I both know that I nearly wrote you off. I really thought you were hopeless for a few years there. Then you let me have the priviledge of witnessing you surrender your life to Jesus, and I knew things were going to be different this time. In case you don’t know, I’ve bragged about you all across the country to people who have invited me to speak in their churches. Often times they clap when they hear about that day.

I’m very happy we live together now. I’ll admit, just a few weeks ago on the day I had to make a decision about taking that new apartment and having you move in as my roommate I wasn’t totally sure if I liked the idea too much. Here we are almost a month later and I must say it’s been very good for me. I like having you around, even though I’m gone so much we hardly see each other. Just having you there eases my mind. I know you’re watching over my stuff and I know you care a lot about me. Having you there makes my life better.

Today I’m making myself accountable to you. I have done you a disservice by not sharing some of the amazing things I’ve been learning lately. That is going to change. Even when I’m on the road or working and we don’t have time together, face to face, I have no excuse for not writing to you or emailing you. I am hereby making a promise to share with you some of the things that have resulted in my faith in God deepening to a point I’ve never imagined possible. This stuff will change your life, and that’s not some exhausted clichĂ©… it’s 100% true. This isn’t boring Bible banging. You’ll be intrigued. I know you well enough to know that.

So, Bub, just know I love you. Even if I don’t tell you often enough. I’m pretty sure you already know, but I also know you need to hear it in person once in awhile.

– Donny –

4 thoughts on “Dear Daniel

  1. ummmmmmmm… well, i don’t know what to say except that this brought me to tears and you know that is not normal for me. i love you donny, you have been the only person that makes me wanna change my life due to the way you talk to me. i hear dad say..” i don’t mean to rag on you or criticize you but……..” and that’s where my thoughts, feelings and attention to the conversation go right out the window. i hear that from him every time i talk to him. i know he means well, but damn, quit telling me the same thing EVERY TIME I SEE YOU!! lol. anyways, we both still know i do have a drinking problem and that’s something i need to deal with, but i can say, i am much more proud to say i am an alcoholic, than a meth head like i was… :). you helped me out there a lot and i am forever grateful for that. i know i can quit alcohol. honestly, it is harder than i thought, but like you said, i can go up to anyone, talk to them, and not care what they think about me, so if i have that much strength in me for that, i have enough to quit this addiction also. it’s a lot different, the way you try to help me, compared to the way others do. i hear, ” want, want ,want” from them, and hear “i’m disappointed in you, but i know you can do it” from you. it hurts worse for me to hear the person who i believe has helped me out the most in life because of how you come across to me, is disappointed in me…… that actually makes me stop and say “what the heck am i doing? this person who has tried to help me out all this time is getting nothing in return” but yet you have stayed there and tried to help me as much as possible. everyone else wants to rag and bitch and think it’s gonna help me quit by saying,”oh, it’s bad for you” or whatever they say to me all the time. well you know better than anyone else that when i hear someone say something, i do the total opposite because i still hate authority. i gotta just realize that my life was given to me from someone else and i need to straighten up. it still will take some time but i know i will do it. then, i do believe i am going to have a passion inside of me that no one can stop, to help kids,teenagers, and even adults to be able to quit these hard addictions in life. reason being… I HAVE BEEN THERE!! it’s easy for someone to say, hey, drugs are bad or alcohol is bad and you need to stop before it kills you.. well, if you haven’t been there to experience it.. how can you just say “hey, you need to quit?” it’s harder than a lot of people think. i just hope that all these experiences i have had, i can someday save someone’s life, the way you saved mine.. actually, i hope i can do waaaayyyyy more than that. i have big dreams but yet because of my past, i don’t think i can do them, well, i think i can, but authority figures say i can’t do a lot of things i want to but like it says.. through god, all things are possible if you only believe, and i do believe one day that i will be able to be talking or doing something like you are, and touch that one person no one else could’ve gotten through too, because i have been there, done that, and maybe i will be the one to step up and say something to change this person’s life before they get as far as i did and make them realize, hey, my life’s not as bad as i thought and i can quit easier than i thought and that’s the day i am looking forward too. well, i’ll be quiet for now.. lol. but i do thank you for everything you’ve done for me.. i’m alive. that’s something i wouldn’t be able to say if you didn’t make me move from vegas a while ago.. thank you.

  2. ummmmmmmm… well, i don’t know what to say except that this brought me to tears and you know that is not normal for me. i love you donny, you have been the only person that makes me wanna change my life due to the way you talk to me. i hear dad say..” i don’t mean to rag on you or criticize you but……..” and that’s where my thoughts, feelings and attention to the conversation go right out the window. i hear that from him every time i talk to him. i know he means well, but damn, quit telling me the same thing EVERY TIME I SEE YOU!! lol. anyways, we both still know i do have a drinking problem and that’s something i need to deal with, but i can say, i am much more proud to say i am an alcoholic, than a meth head like i was… :). you helped me out there a lot and i am forever grateful for that. i know i can quit alcohol. honestly, it is harder than i thought, but like you said, i can go up to anyone, talk to them, and not care what they think about me, so if i have that much strength in me for that, i have enough to quit this addiction also. it’s a lot different, the way you try to help me, compared to the way others do. i hear, ” want, want ,want” from them, and hear “i’m disappointed in you, but i know you can do it” from you. it hurts worse for me to hear the person who i believe has helped me out the most in life because of how you come across to me, is disappointed in me…… that actually makes me stop and say “what the heck am i doing? this person who has tried to help me out all this time is getting nothing in return” but yet you have stayed there and tried to help me as much as possible. everyone else wants to rag and bitch and think it’s gonna help me quit by saying,”oh, it’s bad for you” or whatever they say to me all the time. well you know better than anyone else that when i hear someone say something, i do the total opposite because i still hate authority. i gotta just realize that my life was given to me from someone else and i need to straighten up. it still will take some time but i know i will do it. then, i do believe i am going to have a passion inside of me that no one can stop, to help kids,teenagers, and even adults to be able to quit these hard addictions in life. reason being… I HAVE BEEN THERE!! it’s easy for someone to say, hey, drugs are bad or alcohol is bad and you need to stop before it kills you.. well, if you haven’t been there to experience it.. how can you just say “hey, you need to quit?” it’s harder than a lot of people think. i just hope that all these experiences i have had, i can someday save someone’s life, the way you saved mine.. actually, i hope i can do waaaayyyyy more than that. i have big dreams but yet because of my past, i don’t think i can do them, well, i think i can, but authority figures say i can’t do a lot of things i want to but like it says.. through god, all things are possible if you only believe, and i do believe one day that i will be able to be talking or doing something like you are, and touch that one person no one else could’ve gotten through too, because i have been there, done that, and maybe i will be the one to step up and say something to change this person’s life before they get as far as i did and make them realize, hey, my life’s not as bad as i thought and i can quit easier than i thought and that’s the day i am looking forward too. well, i’ll be quiet for now.. lol. but i do thank you for everything you’ve done for me.. i’m alive. that’s something i wouldn’t be able to say if you didn’t make me move from vegas a while ago.. thank you.

  3. Wow, that was heart warming. thanks for sharing that with us.

  4. Wow, that was heart warming. thanks for sharing that with us.

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