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My Thoughts on the Debate

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I’m sitting in Starbucks in downtown Chico listening to a live version of Damien Rice singing The Blower’s Daughter. I love that song. I wanted to purchase Damien’s version of it several months ago, but iTunes didn’t have it available at the time. A few days ago I checked again, and the live version was for sale. YES! It’s actually quite good live. A video of Damien singing the song is available on YouTube here, free of charge.

I mention that song because it has a subduing power over me. When I listen to it, I’m taken to a place of sadness. I am pretty sure that’s because I first heard the song on the movie Closer, which was one of the most heart wrenching human drama stories I’ve ever seen… a story of love and loss, and humans being hurtful to each other. I watched that movie once, in 2004 when it came out, yet it still sticks with me.

Why would I want to take myself to that state of mind, you ask? I don’t know if I can really explain the answer to that question, but I will tell you this: yesterday morning, the morning after the debate, I woke up in a mood very similar to the one The Blower’s Daughter takes me to: sadness… a sense of loss… a feeling of love that almost seems useless to have.

Don’t get me wrong, the debate was a blast. The experience was one I will remember for the rest of my life. But I was also reminded of the slave I used to be as I spoke with two people still in that same bondage: Ron Jeremy and Monique Alexander.

Ron… I can’t help but love that guy to pieces. There is just something about him in person that just makes you want to squeeze him like a Teddy Bear. He can be a bit vulgar at times, and still I can’t help wanting to put my arm around his shoulder. Monique Alexander is a beautiful 25 year old porn star that has been in the business for 7 years. She, too, is very likable. My heart breaks for both of them because I know what it feels like to be in their shoes when the lights go off and the crowds go away.

I don’t want to go too deep, because I think you’ll do better to wait until the debate airs and experience for yourself what I’m talking about. But I do want to warn you: DO NOT, DO NOT, DO NOT watch it with children. I’m sure Nightline will bleep out certain words, but very frank porn terms will no doubt make their way into the finished product. Porn realities were discussed with no holds barred. Some adults may even want to consider whether or not they REALLY want to know what they’ll hear from that debate. Personally, I think the story needs to be heard, but if I tell you all this you can’t come to me later and say I didn’t warn you.

I prayed before the debate that God would guide what I said and let His words be heard. I prayed the same for Craig Gross as well. I sure hope that’s what happened.

The debate airs this coming Thursday night (February 21st) at 11:35 pm on Nightline ABC. The time should be the same no matter where you live. An hour and a half of discussion will be edited to about 20 minutes, but I’m told the Nightline ABC website will have the full debate beginning on Wednesday and concluding Thursday.

It will be a… learning experience… should you choose to watch.

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16 thoughts on “My Thoughts on the Debate

  1. Godspeed Donny. You’re following your calling. keep at it. ignore the bastards that want to tell you that you’re wrong.

    Do What God has called you to do.

    In Christ,

    -Chuck

  2. Godspeed Donny. You’re following your calling. keep at it. ignore the bastards that want to tell you that you’re wrong.

    Do What God has called you to do.

    In Christ,

    -Chuck

  3. Donny,

    I am pleased the debate went well (as I was certain it would, of course), and I congratulate you and encourage you. You are certainly on a God-sent path, and you are doing well at your appointed task.

    – David

  4. Donny,

    I am pleased the debate went well (as I was certain it would, of course), and I congratulate you and encourage you. You are certainly on a God-sent path, and you are doing well at your appointed task.

    – David

  5. Ron. Yea, you gotta love him
    Proud to lock arms with you.

    Jharp

  6. Ron. Yea, you gotta love him
    Proud to lock arms with you.

    Jharp

  7. Congratulations Donny!

    I’m looking forward to watching this. I don’t know how you can handle standing up in front of huge crowds like that, that is a gift all by itself. I could never do such a thing.

  8. Congratulations Donny!

    I’m looking forward to watching this. I don’t know how you can handle standing up in front of huge crowds like that, that is a gift all by itself. I could never do such a thing.

  9. Have I told you lately that I think you are a total goober?
    A groovy goober though! :)~

  10. Have I told you lately that I think you are a total goober?
    A groovy goober though! :)~

  11. I will tell Cary to record it!
    I am looking forward to watching it. (Don’t worry, I am pretty shock-proof!)
    Love ya’!!!

  12. I will tell Cary to record it!
    I am looking forward to watching it. (Don’t worry, I am pretty shock-proof!)
    Love ya’!!!

  13. I’m definitely interested in watching the debate!

    But I’m wondering if fame is one of the big motivators for people getting into porn in the first place. That craving to be known, to be seen…porn is a fairly easy, direct route (although not without a huge price to pay).

    AND that empty feeling when the lights go out is felt by anyone famous for any reason, not just porn. When there’s a gaping hole inside us to fill, we’re cold and lonely when the attention goes away. I think all human beings have this in common. Fame mesmerizes us, and our wishes for grandiosity can cripple us.

  14. I’m definitely interested in watching the debate!

    But I’m wondering if fame is one of the big motivators for people getting into porn in the first place. That craving to be known, to be seen…porn is a fairly easy, direct route (although not without a huge price to pay).

    AND that empty feeling when the lights go out is felt by anyone famous for any reason, not just porn. When there’s a gaping hole inside us to fill, we’re cold and lonely when the attention goes away. I think all human beings have this in common. Fame mesmerizes us, and our wishes for grandiosity can cripple us.

  15. I’m pretty excited about seeing this, but I know I’m going to be pretty depressed afterwards. I just got my “Jesus loves pornstars” Bible and I’m surprised at how many Christians react negatively to it.

    In any case, I’m glad you’re doing what you’re doing and taking a stand for Jesus. Go you.

  16. I’m pretty excited about seeing this, but I know I’m going to be pretty depressed afterwards. I just got my “Jesus loves pornstars” Bible and I’m surprised at how many Christians react negatively to it.

    In any case, I’m glad you’re doing what you’re doing and taking a stand for Jesus. Go you.

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