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Is This Sexy?

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In an internet discussion with a bunch of guys who think porn’s great, I shared a few of my “porn stories”, which you, my constant readers, have all read.  There are always all sorts of reasons/objections these guys use to explain why each story “isn’t my fault” or to find somewhere else to pass the buck of blame.

I decided to look for other stories of reality, so I went to the website of  former porn star Shelley Lubben and found some really sexy facts:

  • 66% of porn stars have Herpes, a non-curable disease.
  • Chlamydia and Gonorrhea among performers is 10x greater than that of LA County 20-24 year olds.
  • 70% of sexually transmitted infections in the porn industry occur in females.
  • 25 HIV cases among porn performers since 2004 reported by Adult Industry Medical Healthcare.
  • 20 suicides and 28 drug related deaths among performers that we know of since 2000.
  • Over 100 straight and gay performers died from AIDS.
  • The largest group viewing online pornography is ages 12 to 17.
  • More than 11 million teens regularly view porn online.
  • Worldwide pornography revenue in 2006 was $97.06 billion. Of that, approximately $13 billion was in the United States.
  • There are 4.2 million pornographic websites, 420 million pornographic web pages, and 68 million daily search engine requests.

She has links to references backing up those stats at the bottom of the page, and a few “happy happy joy joy” stories from porn stars some of you might recognize over on this page. Beautiful stories, no? Check them out:

“I did over 100 xxx hardcore movies where I was slapped, hit, choked and forced to to sex scenes I never agreed to.
As I did more and more scenes I abused prescription pills which were given to me anytime I wanted by several Doctors in the San Fernando Valley. I was given Vicodin, Xanax, Norcos, Prozac and Zoloft.” – Michelle Avanti

My first movie I was treated very rough by 3 guys. They pounded on me, gagged me with their penises, and tossed me around like I was a ball! I was sore, hurting and could barely walk. My insides burned and hurt so badly. I could barely pee and to try to have a bowel movement was out of the question. I was hurting so bad from the physical abuse from these 3 male porn stars! – Alexa Milano

“People in the porn industry are numb to real life and are like zombies walking around. The abuse that goes on in this industry is completely ridiculous. The way these young ladies are treated is totally sick and brainwashing. I left due to the trauma I experienced even though I was there only a short time.” – Jessie Jewels

“I had bodily fluids all over my face that had to stay on my face for ten minutes. The abuse and degradation was rough. I sweated and was in deep pain. On top of the horrifying experience, my whole body ached, and I was irritable the whole day. The director didn’t really care how I feltt; he only wanted to finish the video.” – Genevieve

“They told me if had my AIDS test that I’d be safe. I arrived on the set with my test and did a hardcore scene with two men. Within that week I was very sick with a fever of 104 and blisters all over my mouth, throat and private area. I looked like a monster. The doctor told me I had the non-curable disease Genital Herpes. I wanted to die.” – Roxy aka Shelley Lubben

“The truth is I let my lifestyle get the best of me. I hate life. I’m a mess. A disaster. I’ve attempted suicide many times.”
“No one cares about a dead porn star or stripper.” – Neesa

“Guys punching you in the face. You have semen from many guys all over your face, in your eyes. You get ripped. Your insides can come out of you. It’s never ending.” – Jersey Jaxin

“I found out 2 days later that I had caught gonorrhea in my first scene! As quick as that the glamour of being a porn star was gone. In the five years I was shooting I caught Gonorrhea and Chlamydia many times. Sometimes both at the same time about every 3-5 months.” – Nadia Styles

“As for myself, I ended up paying the price from working in the porn industry. In 2006, not even 9 months in, I caught a moderate form of dysplasia of the cervix(which is a form of HPV, a sexually transmitted disease) and later that day, I also found out I was pregnant. I had only 1 choice which was to abort the baby during my first month. It was extremely painful emotionally and physically. When it was all over, I cried my eyes out.”- Tamra Toryn

“My first scene was one of the worst experiences of my life. It was very scary. It was a very rough scene. My agent didn’t let me know ahead of time… I did it and I was crying and they didn’t stop. It was really violent. He was hitting me. It hurt. It scared me more than anything. They wouldn’t stop. They just kept rolling.”
“Drugs are huge. They’re using viagra. It’s unnatural. The girls will be on xanax and vicodin.” – Sierra Sinn

“I didn’t want to feel the pain of penetration from an over average sized man, being told to freeze in a position until the camera man was happy with his shots was very painful. I had peoples body fluids forced on my face or anywhere else the producer pleased and I had to accept it or else no pay. Sometimes you would get to a gig and the producer would change what the scene was supposed to be to something more intense and again if you didn’t like it, too bad, you did it or no pay.” – Elizabeth Rollings

“I went through more heartbreaks and became suicidal. I was taken to the hospital for panic attacks. I tried to overdose on xanax, strangle myself, and cut my wrists but not nearly deep enough. I was too scared of the pain. I prayed God would just take me away! I felt helpless. I even went to church for a few months but the guilt I felt was overwhelming that I would feel as if I were choking when I was at church. I had to choose and once again I chose to continue sinning. It was easier and I needed the money.” – Crissy Moran

“I hung out with a lot of people in the Adult industry, everybody from contract girls to gonzo actresses. Everybody has the same problems. Everybody is on drugs. It’s an empty lifestyle trying to fill up a void.”
“I became horribly addicted to heroin and crack. I overdosed at least 3 times, had tricks pull knives on me, have been beaten half to death- the only reason I am still here is God. – Becca Brat

“We should think about these issues right now, to change stuff around to make this a safer f**kin’ business. It isn’t a safe business, and I thought it was, and I would have not did that scene with no condom with Darren James if it would have crossed my mind that those tests weren’t good and that I couldn’t trust him or the people he’s been with. I thought porn people were the cleanest people in the world, is what I thought.” – Lara Roxx, diagnosed with HIV in April, 2004 along with four other porn stars.

How well does this match up to the sexually appealing picture trying to be portrayed on screen?  Witnessing these types of things in person is the biggest reason I can honestly say I’m not attracted to porn.

29 thoughts on “Is This Sexy?

  1. Wow! I have heard stories like this and though it is hard to swallow it really helps to see this industry as what is. It totally brings the fantasy out of porn and smashes you square in the face with the reality of this. Thanks for sharing this. more people need to hear truth like this.

  2. Wow! I have heard stories like this and though it is hard to swallow it really helps to see this industry as what is. It totally brings the fantasy out of porn and smashes you square in the face with the reality of this. Thanks for sharing this. more people need to hear truth like this.

  3. I try and remember this when ever i am tempted. keep sharing stories like this.

  4. I try and remember this when ever i am tempted. keep sharing stories like this.

  5. Wow … if that doesn’t drive the point home, not much will. I am remembering that ABC debate that you filmed with Craig, Jeremy and the woman porn star (I don’t remember her name) and they kept insisting how harmless and wonderfully glamorous the porn industry is to porn stars. It was obvious — even by a couple of her answers and expressions — that she, herself, is a woman with scars. It breaks my heart. Thank God for folks like you and Shelly who are willing to lay yourselves out there and expose the industry for what it is. I am praying for a windfall of healing and very vocal and compassionate witnesses to come out of that community of hurting people. Sounds like it has already begun.

  6. Wow … if that doesn’t drive the point home, not much will. I am remembering that ABC debate that you filmed with Craig, Jeremy and the woman porn star (I don’t remember her name) and they kept insisting how harmless and wonderfully glamorous the porn industry is to porn stars. It was obvious — even by a couple of her answers and expressions — that she, herself, is a woman with scars. It breaks my heart. Thank God for folks like you and Shelly who are willing to lay yourselves out there and expose the industry for what it is. I am praying for a windfall of healing and very vocal and compassionate witnesses to come out of that community of hurting people. Sounds like it has already begun.

  7. Thanks or speaking the truth. Again.

    I wish that more women would speak out like Shelley Lubben (though I can certainly understand why they would be very reluctant to). The noise about this abuse and exploitation ISN’T LOUD ENOUGH. I always share your stories with the guys in my recovery group. Those of us who were involved in supporting this industry need to stay aware of the gravity of what we have been involved in and how harmful it is to others.

  8. Thanks or speaking the truth. Again.

    I wish that more women would speak out like Shelley Lubben (though I can certainly understand why they would be very reluctant to). The noise about this abuse and exploitation ISN’T LOUD ENOUGH. I always share your stories with the guys in my recovery group. Those of us who were involved in supporting this industry need to stay aware of the gravity of what we have been involved in and how harmful it is to others.

  9. @Jesse
    Oh – and you might want to watch out for what Ads by Google is throwing on your page. When I read this earlier the ad at the bottom of this post was promoting bikini pictures of Marie Osmond. Just wanted to give you a heads up.

  10. @Jesse
    Oh – and you might want to watch out for what Ads by Google is throwing on your page. When I read this earlier the ad at the bottom of this post was promoting bikini pictures of Marie Osmond. Just wanted to give you a heads up.

  11. Jesse,

    I’ve removed Google ads from the site. Those types of ads are annoying. Besides that, it turns out they were slowing down page loading time. Ads for bikini photos + slower site = not worth it.

  12. Jesse,

    I’ve removed Google ads from the site. Those types of ads are annoying. Besides that, it turns out they were slowing down page loading time. Ads for bikini photos + slower site = not worth it.

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  14. Donny, I just stumbled across this blog today and I agree with almost everything I have read so far. One thing I need to tell you that I highly disagree with is your kind of rote comment about “Fighting Porn is about Education not Legislation” I understand why you make this comment but it really bothers me that you do it. I know you want to seem as non-judging and accepting as possible but to me you are selling out by making that comment above. I would like to say that porn should be fought with both Education and Legislation… If you don't believe that re-read your above post. It is so evident that Porn is a breeding ground for crime and violence. The very reason we have legislation in this country is to protect victims of crime and to deter criminals through threat of punishment. People can do whatever they want to their own bodies but they cannot victimize others. If we follow your logic about what you spout about freedom of speech etc… It is a slipperly slope to the MAMBLA and other pedophiles, rapist etc – who are criminals just like the people in porn that are hurting others. Not to mention the fact they are victimizing our children. This should be punishable by law and prevented. You should not sugar coat this just to get close to people in the Porn industry – we have an obligation as Christians to speak the truth in love to the lost no matter who they are or what they have done but we must be truthful. The truth is that porn has many victims again see above that we can try to educate in the meantime but not be telling them they should be able to legally victimize others in our society Christian or otherwise… Lets not water it down just to get around their objections and their feelings that Christians are judgemental. To me the people who spout off the most about tolerance are the very people who are the most intollerant of people – especially intolerant of Christians so that excuse is getting very old.

  15. Jamie,I'm sorry, but using that logic we'd have to also outlaw alcohol and many other things. Pretty soon we'd be living in a dictatorship where people are totally controlled as to how to live their lives. To participate in porn, a person must be at least 18 years old. It definitely victimizes people, but the victims must willingly accept that. It's kinda like Satan vs. People: Satan victimizes us by seducing us to make poor choices. God allows that to happen through free will. I stand firm: education and love will change hearts, and better decisions will be made. Christian supported legislation against adults will only drive people further from Him.

  16. Jesse, Simply because something is not sexy does not make it porn. Bikini pictures of Marie Osmond, though unpleasant, are harmless.

  17. Donny:I appreciate your honesty. It's been helpful for me to read about what the business is like. I just heard a brother in the legal profession say the other day “If they say it's a crime that is victimless it usually means that there are a lot of victims!I used to buy into the “I'm not hurting anyone by looking at this”. It's nothing but denial in my case. Thanks for shining a light on this.

  18. So which jobs are there that don't mess people up in some way? I've never heard of any profession in a capitalist economy that doesn't shatter and disillusion the worker in some way. I'm not sure how the uglier side of pornography is worse than the ugly side of sweat shop labor or retail careers or law practice except that it involves sex. Couldn't the problem be the fact that people are for sale – period – and not the specific types of services being provided for money? Everyone's compromising themselves somehow.

  19. Honestly, this will not stop me from watching porn or enjoying it. If these people really thought it was safe they need to do their research. Also, if your producer changes the scene to something you don’t like, then I’m sorry, you just take no pay and move on.

  20. This is the reason we all go to great lengths to find real amateur porn. Professionally made porn is disgusting. Once the magic of boobies wears off, you start to realize how horribly monstrous it all is.

  21. I call bullshit. Most of these women have been in DOZENS of porn movies yet you have these whiney quotes from them. Want to know how much they make per movie? Thousands of dollars. Thats more than you or I make in a week. If they don't like it – why do they have 100 film credits? I have trouble mustering sympathy for 23 year nimrods that make 200K+ / year. Also…this entire “Oh I had no idea it was this bad” thing…porn is freely available online…did they not watch a couple movies before deciding “Hey, this looks like a good idea!”Bullshit.

  22. yep… it's pretty easy cherry picking a bunch of quotes that support your point. The vast majority of the quotes and statistics could have come from the non-porn world and be just as legitimate and believable.

  23. That is why I'd much rather watch amateur porn than professional porn since at least the amateurs are enjoying one another, you hope. I find professional porn to be vulgar boring, and non-arousing since it's not real and has no true emotion attached to it.

  24. I had to choose and once again I chose to continue sinning. It was easier and I needed the money.” – Crissy MoranThat quote says everything about the people in porn. We all have a choice in life, no matter how hard they can be at times. No one is forcing these people to stay.

  25. Approve.

  26. All this happens to regular girls who didn't choose this type of lifestyle choice. What about the girls who didn't have any choice. These greedy little stupid girls need to follow some good advice before they join in and if they do, take it slow and don't be greedy. Wait until you are old enough to make sure this is the industry for you or pay the consequences for being precocious. Some of the actors move halfway across the country on purpose in order to enroll in an industry that sells sex videos. WTF did they think would happen?

  27. thank you very much I'm not totally shocked, but slightly surprised at some of these heart-breaking testimonials.

  28. I just can’t begin to fathom where they get many young to pose and do other things I must admit I have watched it. It is degrading to the woman to see what is done to them.

  29. I used to watch porn sometimes but not addicted.after reading this i promise,i will not see anymore.thanks you and carry on

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